Loving without limits
I am very picky when it comes to everything, food, what I watch on TV, what I read, where I go, especially when it comes to the man in my life.
I am a person that gives second chances; you know everyone deserves a second chance right? But I never said that the second chance is going to come easy, that’ll be earned.
When I love, I love unconditionally. Unfortunately, this world and most people in it love with limits. For me it makes finding true love difficult.
I am letting God write my love story. I tried writing it myself and it was a mess every single time. I have been single for over 5 years, and I am glad I was. It allowed me to learn so much about myself, what I like, what I don’t like, what I truly want out of my life, what kind of person I want to be, and become, what kind of mother, wife, sister and friend I want to be too.
Truthfully that journey in the beginning was so difficult, but I knew that I was worth the person I keep dreaming of in my head. I found ways to discover me in my own way, I started with self-help books, and I quickly learned that was not the route for me. I listened to sermons, inspirational speakers, tried new things like talking to strangers in public. Fast forward a few years later I have gotten into my own flow, but somethings are a little harder than others, yet I still persist.
Social settings are still challenging for me, but not as terrifying as it used to be. I can hold a conversation with a stranger and not have my heart beating out of my chest. I can go on a date and pick up on red flags and say good night not feel worthless.
I have loved, lost and been used, mistreated, beaten, abused, but I refused to be consumed by it. I choose to let it all mean something good for me. It made me stronger, smarter, braver and wealthy.
I am waiting productively on my husband to find me.
I have unlimited love, passion and grace for my husband.
I do not fear loving without limits, I love myself, my kids, my family and my future husband, just how the father in heaven have unconditional and unlimited love, patience, grace, mercy and kindness for me.
I am not going to stop being picky, but I’ll never stop loving without limits.